Who am I?

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The encoded code that I am born with..
The trials that came when I were a kid..
The defining moments that showed me love and care..
Isn't that going to answer the question of where am I in there..

The mirror neurons that keep seeking validation..
The maladaptive behaviours that cause this inhibition..
The rewards and endorphins that I keep chasing..
Is just the background noise of all that electricity blazing..

The inherent desire to fit in the community..
The sense of loss on losing that self identity..
Dreams and aspirations that I picked up on the way..
Are just random nuances of living with eyes open each day..

I don't know who I am and am still in a fix..
Maybe because I am just a random mix..
Of electrical activity and chemicals reactions just like in a wasp..
Who has woken up to a consciousness that it cannot grasp..

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